Good Friends

Come to think of it, I haven't met up with my good friends for a few weeks already.

The group of six... (come on, you know that you guys will ALWAYS be on my list)

The medics trio (yeap, CL and YS, you too you too.)

The dancers (how can I forget)

Gonna try to find them all before I leave....

Leaving on a Jet Plane

Just heard this song called Leaving on a Jet Plane.

Don't know who sang it. Don't know when it was from.

But the lyrics just fits my current situation perfectly. (strange how I keep finding songs that describes my circumstances lately)

For those who are leaving Singapore for a foreign country, leaving your loved ones (especially your other half, the special him or her) behind, I'm sure you will totally identify yourselves with this song.

When I heard it, I just felt as if I was singing the song myself. For in 1 month's time, I'll be leaving without HER. Even now, I can feel the torn feeling of having my heart in one place and body in another, transcending through time from the future to this very moment when I am typing this entry.

As she says so very often, "o well..." It's a path I chose. It's a decision I won't regret. There's no way I'll pass her up.

Definition of "Blubber"

Was Googling the word "Blubber".

Expected a whole bunch of cute stuff to come up. Well, let's just say things didn't go as planned...

Blubber is a thick layer of vascularized fat found under the skin of all cetaceans, pinnipeds and sirenians.

~~from wikipedia

I mean if it were something more normal I wouldn't have been too surprised. But it had to be some fatty tissue on some unknown deep sea shell like life-form unknown to much of mankind. Haha!

Don't be too sad dear...

Presence

It's amazing how the presence of another person can do such wonders. Just being physically present. Doesn't matter what she's doing.

As you can probably see in my previous post, I wasn't in a good mood. That's what it says literally in that post. I was being plagued by minor problems or anticipation of future problems. All of which I have blown out of proportion.

Then I went out to lunch with her. And some of her old friends. It was nice. Just a normal lunch. Nothing extraordinary.

In fact, we didn't get to talk as much as we usually do during lunch because conversation time was shared between four of us now. Don't get me wrong. I enjoyed the gathering. Her friends were nice people. I'm just speaking matter-of-fact-ly.

But somehow I just feel relieved of my burdens. Simply being around her makes me feel better. Strange isn't it? Even without doing anything much. Without any form of verbal consolation.

I was able to calm down and look at things differently. Put things into perspective.

She's really a gift to me.

Thanks Joanne...

I'm feeling really bad right now...

Letters

Never knew letters were such powerful things.

Well now I know... (one times jialat jialat ah!)

Have you ever had a fear that strikes so suddenly that you don't even have time to react?

Have you ever had a fear so strong that it weighs you down so dreadfully?

Have you ever had a fear that strikes not at the head, not at the body but straight at the heart?

If the answer is yes, what do you do?

If the answer is yes, what is your bottomline?

If the answer is yes, what is the one single thing that will sweep all of that away?

人生重大的一步

昨天，我跨出了人生中重大的一步。 我想也是时候了。

我既然能踏出这一步，就不会想要回头。

虽然至今还是有点忐忑不安。虽然走进了完全陌生的世界。我坚信我没做错。只要玲玲在我身边支持我，我相信我一定能义无反顾的走下去。

Aerosmith "I don't want to miss a thing"

I know that this is an old song.

But the lyrics are just so nice aren't they?

I especially like the verses. (i.e. the "non-chorus". Sorry, my english not good enough)

I could stay awake just to hear you breathing

Watch you smile while you are sleeping

While you're far away and dreaming

I could spend my life in this sweet surrender

I could stay lost in this moment forever

Where every moment spent with you is a moment I treasure

Don't want to close my eyes

I don't want to fall asleep

Cause I'd miss you baby

And I don't want to miss a thing

Cause even when I dream of you

The sweetest dream will never do

I'd still miss you baby

And I don't want to miss a thing

Lying close to you feeling your heart beating

And I'm wondering what you're dreaming

Wondering if it's me you're seeing

Then I kiss your eyes

And thank God we're together

I just want to stay with you in this moment forever

Forever and ever

I don't want to close my eyes

I don't want to fall asleep

Cause I'd miss you baby

And I don't want to miss a thing

Cause even when I dream of you

The sweetest dream will never do

I'd still miss you baby

And I don't want to miss a thing

I don't want to miss one smile

I don't want to miss one kiss

I just want to be with you

Right here with you, just like this

I just want to hold you close

Feel your heart so close to mine

And just stay here in this moment

For all the rest of time

Yeah yeah yeah

I don't want to close my eyes

I don't want to fall asleep

Cause I'd miss you baby

And I don't want to miss a thing

Cause even when I dream of you

The sweetest dream will never do

I'd still miss you baby

And I don't want to miss a thing

I Don't want to close my eyes

I don't want to fall asleep

Cause I'd miss you baby

And I don't want to miss a thing

Cause even when I dream of you

the sweetest dream will never do

I'd still miss you baby

And I don't want to miss a thing

Don't want to close my eyes

I don't want to fall asleep

And I don't want to miss a thing

I guess the lyrics just describe how I feel now...

Screwed upside down

Just to update you guys on what's happening in my life recently.

Other than giving my time to Joanne, my family and my research internship at ASTAR, I've also been busy looking for a place to live in London for the next academic year.

The initial idea was to form a household of five guys. (we are not gays!) This was the idea from a few months ago. In this group, there are 3 Singaporeans, 1 Hong Konger and 1 French. The French will be staying in UK so he will look for a place while all of us were back in our home countries.

Anyway, what happened is that 1 of the Singaporean decides to pull out last minute. I will not elaborate further on the details of the event. The consequences are that now, the remaining 4 of us are in a MAD SCRAMBLE to try and find a place to live.

Can't believe the 4 of us were actually screwed upside down by this 1 guy.

So what....

Haven't blogged in a long time...

So what?