Simply wonderful...

This year's birthday is the best I've had in my 22 years on Earth.

It's simply wonderful. Much much more than I could have ever imagined.

Thank you Joanne for making all this happen...

Something, somewhere, went terribly wrong

I just love this picture! What a way to put things into perspective...

Kinda reflects my current circumstances as well. Haha!

For the sake of it....

Research Internship

I have recently started a research internship at ASTAR's Institute of High Performance Computing.

Found it quite challenging. Realised that research is not as I think it is.

It's not like a lab script where you just follow instructions and take the prescribed readings. Gotta stretch myself quite abit to get things going.

First, got to learn how to use UNIX and the program DDSCAT 6.1. Then got to learn the physics behind my project. Lastly, during the project itself, got to figure out how to solve problems and what values to extract meaning from.

Really quite enjoying myself now. Feel as if I'm making full use of my time and learning and doing as much as I can.

Of course, things weren't always smooth sailing. Initially, I was quite overwhelmed by the steep learning curve. Luckily Joanne (just realised that this is the first time I mentioned her explicitly in my blog. tsk tsk... lousy boyfriend) was here to provided ample care and support.

Anyway things are going pretty ok now. Just hope that they continue to be...

Anything la....

Ever had someone tell that you don't have an opinion of your own when you say, "Anything la."

Do you agree with them?

Well I don't. Not always anyway.

"Anything" means that under the given circumstances, the choices available don't make much of a difference. Not just not much of a difference in terms of the initial and final state of affairs; but in terms of means as well.

I mean, at least you know that, in your best judgement, all the choices don't really make a difference. And you can live with making any of the choices.

Of course I understand how the image of not having your own opinion comes about. That occurs when you say "anything la" when you just want to follow other people's ideas. There is a very very subtle difference to such a mindset that makes a world of a difference.

至理名言 24

紧握的拳头，是掌握不了任何东西的。

摊开的手掌，同样的，也留不住任何事物。

等待

等待，原来是很艰辛的。

一种前途渺茫的感觉。一种身不由己的感觉。 一种逆水行舟的感觉。

到底等待到最后，会不会有圆满的结局？

但是。。。

难道放弃吗？不战而败吗？

疑问再多，也不过是一些看不到摸不着的东西。为了这些镜花水月，有可能发生，有可能不发生的东西而放弃眼前实实在在的幸福，值得吗?

不值得。

这也许是上天给我的考验吧。毕竟好的东西是值得等待的。既然如此，就只好顺应天明了。君子知命，但不畏命。

如果一切最终不如预期那样，那至少我也能无怨无悔。当然，在那之前，我只能抱着信心和希望勇往直前。将来的事，谁都不知道。

希望在我有所动摇时，我能牢记今天所写的。。。

我一定会耐心的等待。